One week of good things

One week of good things is not a week in a Spa or travelling or whatever pleases every one.

The idea is to mention a daily good thing that happened as we DO forget those and we can easily get invaded by the duties, bullies, bad news, etc.

So I decided to report everyday what was good that day and here is it:

DAY1: Thursday

HUGE traffic jam.... Feeling so lonely in my petite car surrounded by those other hundreds cars... my phone battery is dying ... This car is in my line again! .... Man I am hungry........"Ok Google”.... "Aller à la maison" (“Go Home”... My Googles understands only French)...Oh can't turn where they told me as no one is letting me... euh well, let's do it again ... ""Ok google let's go home" ... "you'll be there in 9 min"...  oh well Mme Google you don't know the crazy traffic in Casa at 6pm ....  But after 9min voilà, I was in front of home.

I liked it because I was so desperate for 1h and Google just told me where to go –even if it was my everyday ride- and twice without having Mme Google complaining.

DAY2 - Friday

I unfollowed Sananas - I followed her first place as Moroccan and found it courageous to have that YouTube channel. However it started to be commercial, fake and too $$$ centered. I don't want any fictional character deception. I unfollowed many channels that night, all those that were too shiny too bio too loud too far from my reality.

DAY3 - Saturday

I unplugged. I have kept my phone in a Plane Mode since Friday after work.

No online games, no notifications, no unwanted popups. Only music, to-do-list and watch (because it's not an into the wild experience you know.) 

Close family could call me on my land phone (like the early 90s), also laptop is on.

I have mainly prepared my food, watched a movie and slept.

Early wake up that Saturday as I was relaxed and not that detached from the world as you might think.

In fact there was no rush when taking a coffee with a friend or during lunch with parents.... you're not seeking your phone for next activity but doing what you are doing.

Day4 - Sunday

I cooked. But cooked for my week and didn't buy extra chocolate I still have enough bad calories hidden in the cupboard. Proud of myself for that.

Day5 - Monday

I hate Mondays. So what I did is that I took a break with everyone that asked so. I said hi to everyone and I just listened. I let it go in a relax mode at work. It's important as I am not a fan of weather talks or discussions during working hours but with good breaks I was most efficient when at my desk.

DAY6 - Tuesday

I was going to say a no stress day in a row. However that day I was reached by an old friend to chat and spontaneously this person told me all the good things she was thinking about me, the real part was that my imperfections are not that bad just human. I was surprised, I just responded a "oh - ok". But seriously I was quite tired of all the shitty things people I don't know imagine my life or myself are. So good when people you know for years just jump to tell you why you are in their life for years.

Day7 - Wednesday

I dated myself. November has always been the month with most important changes in my life. Job changes, Relationships important decisions, health callouts…

So this year no decisions will be taken in this month. I am single and happily in couple with life and will keep an open mind but closed door. If someone can open it welcome but I am running nowhere, having enough things in my hands right now.

Today I understand all the people that were saying... I wake up and write positive things or bullshit I want and it feels good. .. Because at no moment this week I questioned my life. Is it what they call leaving the moment?

We are having a long weekend, Friday is a day off. So family I am coming. Close people to my heart first. I am no perfect but they make me be better every day. I gave so much energy those months, and not necessarily to the right people, that I need to balance. I have to balance.

You know when they say if you need to make an important decision think what your mom, dad, grandma will say to you. Well if you have the chance to still have them in your life just be with them. They are a good you need.

Life comes from physical survival; but the good life comes from what we care about. Rollo May

Zora

We don't need human torches to save lives

First of all I wasn't coming back that fast as I have so many things in mind that I was not sure where to start. Then Soufiane told me that it's time to write something new. And here I am. I needed just no reason in fact. Well poeple this summer is really crazy... Summer as it’s maybe November but it's a real burning sun I am feeling in my arms and legs in that coffee terrace. .. Ok, don’t imagine something fancy as I am just waiting for the guys to finish washing my too dirty car.

So! How are you people? Enjoying life? Avoiding crappy and crippy situations?

If you're like me and you don't look for them but it often slaps you ...It's ok. It’s just life you know.

Those days I am working to learn how not to burn myself to keep other people warm. Because it just has not to be ... hurting... This is for either personal or professional lives.

Yes I am learning also to separate those two.

One thing that is always good to remember, is that you're not mistaken because someone is telling you that you are (except if really you are, like really really). I faced deep incomprehension those days and had this hard times willing to save the world ... i am no savior. And seriously none of us wants to be saved, people need to be heroes of their lives... The main difficulty is be hero but let other be their own heroes. And for that it should not go through lowering others but mainly saying “thank you”, “I don't get it”, “I understand”, rather than “you owe me”, “you you suck” or “look how I do things” and this kind of $*#&. Oh yeah, you can’t proclaim yourself a hero, it’s others that sees you that way … just in case… you know…

Also we are not required to be other people to suit someone. It's so obvious but good to say that again.

I am saying it more in the way if you’re doing it than just … stop. Support people they will give you the world, recognize their good actions and discuss if anything seems wrong and they will be the good people you want them to be. But no judging, you will just lose them.

In life, people surrounding you should be the people that excuse your faults, that doesn’t not even call them faults, laugh with you about them and tells you how they feel without treating you less than a person.

Seriously, life happens, let’s just live things as they should be. They are no defenders, no wrongdoer, no competition in life. People should just come together and it will be so relieving in our lives.

In fact I am just over stressed out people.

Don't judge me or anyone you're into cause this remove their wings. I decided that if people want to hold me or block me I will just go and leave. If they want come back, they are welcome, I don’t manage the right and wrong of the universe. Nobody does.

“Cover me with a wire. I cover you with a wall” - Moroccan quote

Zora