My Head on My Shoulder

 

    I missed this place.

    At first, I spent some time going through the old articles. Had good laughs. I found myself in those posts and it warmed my heart to see how I had no filters.
To say things openly in general or just say things can be priceless. As the years pass, less people around are having time or patience to hear the others speak or share. At the same time, we tend to share less.
    
    Last 2 years, I had to shut me and live in chaos and adjusting to anything life was throwing. Was finding refuge in quiet I surround myself with. And learning patience and resilience as thrown in a space of things I can't control.
And here I am this cold December blogging and back to old habits, because yes, I am done now and happy to be back to the simple and basic, I believe it suits me best.
 
    Since 2020, there was a shift in the world, and I feel that you need to fight to keep some naivety to enjoy life better.
Is it what adult life is about? Being invited to more funerals than marriages, everyone being busy surviving and putting themselves first, and when someone wants to do right theyvrealize that their hands are tied … and this worry to show or share to protect feelings that are more and more too sensitive … Or is it how social media made us become?

    And again, what is social about them anyway? In platforms like Instagram and Facebook, you register to whom you want to connect with, people you know or met, or topics that speaks to you. Then they tell you we show you more of what you “might” like, and they send you what is fact will make you react and far from your interest. It’s like reading newspapers but you can’t skim to the sports section, instead you must scroll through and everything is made to capture you attention at a glance and you can’t unsee it.

   For me social media can open possibilities, and it is also opening chaos and conflict and division. No wonder anxiety is a thing now. And how do we fight anxiety? Well we disconnect from social media as we need to seek nature, connect with family and friends, do community work, breathe, pray... When you shut social media, you are not shutting your world because your real sphere is in Real Life.
  

    This last months I checked all the boxes; I did everything I was supposed to. Fixing Health, that family changes, that dream/goal job, visiting new places and I am so grateful as I have many things I can be happy/proud of and to celebrate. The only thing I had missing, was not able to free my mind or doing it with a light heart and presence as I use to. Because I hardly now feel that I can rest my head on anyone when I need to and it sucks.
  
    So if I take with me something to 2024 it’s Real Life. The health, the family the friends and money, the work that pays for my things and fun.
    Ha! So same what I was doing only with more clarity and presence on what I can touch, see, and talk to. Making time again for what I care for here in the real world. Ready.
     

“Your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change.” - Jim Rohn

 

Zora